I realized that I'm like somebody sleepwalking each day

Just going through the motions, not really conscious of what I do or say...

And though I can't explain it, my dream just seems surreal;

Simply because with each new day, I'm seeing how much God can heal.

I realized today, that I might be tiptoeing around God's will,

That the things I thought I had put to rest, choose to convict me still;

And although I can't explain it, I'm afraid of what will be...

I'm afraid to confront what seems to be God's will for me.

I realized today, that I am torn into...

And struggling to deal with my failure, and what I am to do;

And although I want to proceed and follow dilligently with God's plans

I fear that I will let down all those who've faithfully with me, have taken their stand...

I realized today, that I only start with intentions that are great;

but lack the momentum to continue, and so  my efforts are second rate.

And although I can't explain it -- It seems God hasn't cut his losses yet;

And still, takes the time to remind me; to ensure I don't forget...

I realized today afresh, that God equips those who he calls,

That he continues to encourage, and lift up those who fall;

I am one of the fallen, I've failed time and time again...

And yet I say I am covered by the blood, that cleanses me from all sin...

Poem based on personal perspective. Enough said.